12.4.06
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COWS GO MOO !
1:00 AM
Life's a bitch, Fucking is just an everyday thing.
First of all, today went horridly, there were so many people we got to me. but of course there were those who made things a little better, ABBYCHANG :D and yes, im so not going to pass bio tmr, believe me please.
Well I dont know what to do, I dont know what to expect, I dont know what to feel. All I've been getting are mixed thoughts. You seem happier nowadays, but then again i dont know cause You hardly express it, but somehow something tells me deep down inside that things will be better this way, at least You're happier. I dont want it to be like last time, when we'll cry all the time, at least know i see You happy and laughing occasionally, fake however it seems at times, but i could always pretend that You were really happy. Both You and I know that normal is close to impossible, sometimes i wish for more, but then again five seconds later i tell myself that I'm lucky to know You and wasted so much of our time already. Probation gave me hope, at least we talked abit and You laughed, i tried to picture us close, but seconds later Reality will tell me it will never be the same. I feel like telling You that You have so many people around you who can make You happier than I ever had, but the I question myself will I be able to put it in the past? I dont know. Really.
A little piece of paper with a picture drawn
Floats down the streets until the wind is gone
And the memory now is like the picture was then
When the paper's crumpled up
It can't be perfect again